Tsukiyomi

I'm tired of being left in the dark, I'm not stupid so why can't I figure it out? Why? I'm not stupid, i'm not.

Then who knows? Who can tell me the answers I seek?

See what I mean, no one ever has any logical answers for me. So how do I know what to trust?

Then if I don't carry out revenge for them then who will avenge the aborted babies, who avenges the children? I ask and ask about when revenge comes, how it comes, who does it but no one ever tells me.

Everyone acts like evil is just fine, like it can be accepted. Everyone forgives people for killing innocent children and they don't give a damn about the children. What kind of society am I living in? Why in the world am I here? What is the absolute truth that seperates good from evil, what is it? I have to know I have to know I have to have ultimate power so I can save the children then no one will hurt them ever again, I will destroy anyone who hurts them, children must be protected. And if God wont do it then I will, someone has to protect the children.

It's not the same, they are still alive, I thought murder could only be avenged by murder? What is the truth anymore? Is there any truth anymore? Nothing ever makes sense any more.

I do want to make it illegal but how is it fair that the mother's who have already had abortions get to live when their baby didn't? I just want you to tell me how that is far?

I want to understand where you're coming from but from how you're talking it sounds like you think women who have abortions are good people.

Then what would you have me do with them? Let them live? Let them live when their own children were slaughtered like they were nothing? You tell me how that is justice, how that is fair. Where is your logic behind what you say.

Then what satisfaction would I get if I didn't get to laugh at them as I watched them die slowly of gas posioning? What good would it be if I wasn't satisfied with the revenge. To know that as they slipped into death I watched them and laughed at them like they meant nothing. That way they can feel like they meant nothing just like they treated their children before murdering them.

Then you tell me how to bring the aborted children back to life, tell me that and I wont want to kill the mother's.

Why? Those women killed their babies? The women deserve to have an embarrassing death don't they?

But how can I be evil when didn't do bad things?

I'm not evil, i never killed, rape, drink, smoke or do drugs therefore i'm good.

What's wrong with Jesse?

Okay, I'll try...

I'll be right back I have to feed my dogs.

I hate being powerless, I need power to save people to make things how they should be. With power I can avenge every little baby that was ever aborted, they will all have their deaths avenged by my own hands. I will watch their mother's die slowly as I laugh with joy.

You have no idea, trying to get to sleep for 2 hours and all you can do is scratch at the pillows and scratch at your head or punch yourself or cry or something because babies are being killed in the womb by their own mother's and your powerless to save them.

She wont be, nor will you or Lily. I just want to sleep without crying. I haven't slept well in years, do you know what that is like?