Demyxx

Why am I making you cry?

I <3 you Lily :)

Sexist is right, being a father isn't a bad thing. Heck a baby is their own flesh and blood, their little child. It's not right that they don't love the baby. I mean I know when I have my first baby i'm going to be smiling, shouting with joy, and kissing and hugging my wife and new born baby.

I wish it was more common for guys to say they love babies, I mean they are the most innocent precious people in the world.

I love being resposible, I don't see why people don't like it. Sure you have to follow rules but you're happy cause your doing the right thing. I mean heck if I found a baby at my doorstep I would gladly ask the court for custody for the child, I don't mind having a baby. If I found a girl I really like who happened to be a teenage mother I don't care if she comes with a baby, heck to me that's a plus cause I love babies.

But yeah, i've been through alot, my older sister died a few years ago, my mom is a racist pot smoking rebel (She's probably the reason I don't like partying or having fun cause I hate the stuff she does), and when I was little I......well i'll tell you this last one but i'd rather do it in a private message.

I don't know, i've been through alot in my life, things I wish I didn't have to have gone through. But see like you said most teenagers wont to live life to the fullest by having fun when I care very little about that. I mean I like have someone make rules, if we didn't have laws and rules how would we know the difference between right and wrong. That's why I never liked hippies idea of rebelion, they defied their parents when they should has listened to them. I mean why do young people think they know best, the oldest people are the ones who have the wisdom and we need to listen to them.

That's probably why i'm conservative, I side with my elders alot. And you really think it's sweet that I like babies so much?

Fruit Loops.

That is why bullies are bad people look at what their actions can cause. The negative side affect I have is that well to put it in a nice way, i'm not exactly the life of the party. It means I may come off as a bad person or boring. She also said it makes it difficult for me to understand people my age. Like most teenagers want to get away from their parents and be free but I don't have that desire at all. Most teenagers don't want to start a family or anything like that but I can't wait until one day when I do have a little baby of my own.

So you can kinda see how I really am.

Sorry I meant to write it's probably why I have a problem connecting to people my own age. Basicaly she went into how the brain developes, while most teenagers have not developed enough to where they can really grasp things, I have been able to reach that point of development in my life early. Basicaly it's like i'm developing twice as fast as some teenagers Like instead of having the mind of a 17 year old, I have the mind of a 30 year old.

She actually says it's more common than what people might think. She said what's makes me different is that I take that into an obssesion and it also seems I complexe things to an extent.

She also says that I seem very mature and that is why I have a probably connecting to people my own age.

Well this wont surprise you probably but she says I am a deep thinker.

Okay I guess except my parents wouldn't shut up talking, well mostly it was my mom talking really.

Hey, I went to the Phsycaitrist today.

Sweet, thank you, now I gotta ask what did you like best about the poem? ^_^

Thanks for complimenting my poem, So many people have looked at it, but not replied to it. xD I was begining to think I posted it in the wrong spot.

sorry, i couldnt hold it long


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Oh I see I love you Lily, too bad you don't love me :(

i am oddly happy this month
MERRY CHRISTMAS

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I know. I just fear that his journey will only lead into death.

Yeah, but this path is impossible.