BEFORE I DECAY

anywayz, with the suggestionz..
itz pretty much why i say, "i hope i don't sound rude, but i think you should've ..."
and like yea~
and then in the end i just say, "itz just my opinion though. D: "
so that they don't feel sad/offended.

well there are times that i don't feel like itz complete crap.
and then like, couple monthz later i go like,
"that thing lookz like crap." LMAO.

but i understand what you're saying~~
and thank you for talking to me about it ;w;


and i figured out that when you have like, the basic background in mind/the outcome,
it actually turnz out better than you thought it would;
and better than just randomly slapping on textures and going like,
"this lookz good; letz use this one." ...
well, i figured it out this week, so yey :D

to be honest though, i do have a lot of patience in termz of like, making stuff
but i dun has patience with myself .. well, i do but it just goes down really fast. orz..

hrrm.. when i look at people'z stuff on dA.. i go like,
"how are they so good? why can't i be good? man. i'll never be this good.."
well, yea, i'm a REALLY pessimistic person qq..
would probably explain why i don't get along with my grandma sometimes. D:

i've only been doing it for a year and 2 monthz..
but i wanna be better,
and i constantly tell myself that by this time around, i should be like ..
i dunno, i guess i should be around halfway of your level or Para's level..
yea, high standardz to myself. itz hard to live like this. ;w;

annnd ... continued in next message~

yeaah, i hope there'z someting out there that will help me in the future ;w;

aaww thank youuu >w<

well, i guess everybody goes through the stage i've been going through.
i don't have a lot of support from my friendz from school .. well, "friendz"
sure i have people that are close to me in school, but i wouldn't call them friendz.
you know, fake friendz would be the word, i guess..
but i has support from friendz online, like you and Para and all those other people~
old thingz ...eh... i look a back now and then, and honestly,
i don't think i've improven one bit...
well, aside from like, the first 10 i did that were brushes. <- THOSE. were a completely different story.

but going back to when i first learned textures to now,
i feel like i haven't even took a step forward in using textures,
brushes.. well, thatz a different story. orz.

nooo.. nothing.. D:
well, i do cry.
but crying doesn't do anything. TTwTT
actually, crying just makes it worse... orz..
so i just tell myself to calm down.
it sorta preventz stress, well, not for a long time though.

aaww ;w;
thank you for your concern >w<

me? awesome? qq
thank you, but my GFX isn't so awesome as yours or Para's D:
i only know 2 styles..
i've pretty much been going on a downfall on GFX lately. TTwTT
btw, i sawk at avatarz.. orz..

weeeelll..
i don't have anything to relieve stress, sadly. D:
i get more stressed when i try to relieve stress,
cuz i can't relieve it/let it out.
so i end up more stressed (that i can't relieve stress).
so i don't even try to relieve stress.. orz..

YUSSSH. you should make a shop~~
and you'll never know~
i'm planning on making mine 2 weekz later..
i'm waaay too busy to do requestz at the moment. ;w;

definitely~ :D

ahhhh.. brotherz.. i have a brother.. and older one.. orz..
he'z annoying, but he can be funnie too~
and he can make me laugh when i cry ...sometimes..
well, he just does that by making fun of me in a chipmunk voice..

it was okay~
i had a breakdown, since i got a bad grade on my essay. ;w;
but normally after a breakdown, i end up being more persistent to do better.
so i'm okay now~~

well, i've been having headaches too..
i hasn't been getting a lot of sleep. orz
less sleep = painful, major headaches
but i feel better now~

thank you for the add~~
we never talked a lot on AMB D:
i guess we can start talking on KHP now, though~

soo ..
how was your day :O

Shimai-san! :DD