Demyxx

..........Dreams. My dreams......are false.

Then, why do you still care about me then?

-_____- For some reason Jesse is starting to sound like a Jesse of another member. *Sings* Suicidal! SUICIDAL!! AND THEY SAID IT WAS OOOOVVEEEER!!!

I love you too so very very much xxxxxx

My guess is probably April or May. The game reminds me alot of KH1.

Yeah, i'm almost finished with Terra's story. The game is harder than KH2.

I got my copy of BBS recently.

Then what do you want to talk about?

Then what will? I'm so lost.

Then I want to cry, I want to cry for enternity over and over constantly crying.

Then what do I do? What is the answer, someone please tell me?

No one ever knows what do for me, my family treats me like i'm so bad well maybe I should do something bad then they will love me, they will finally love me like they do my sister. Maybe if I do bad things then I can be like everyone else and everyone will like me.

Then what do we do? We were both hurt by something so what do we do? Oh God I just to beat my head against something right now.

Yes of course it matters that I mean something to you but how could they judge me like that? How? Why?

If I just be a better person then i'll still be sad, i'll be hurt, my childhood will be gone and i'll never get it back. Then I will be empty, I want my childhood back.

Then if I don't get revenge what do I get? What do I get for having to put up with how my family treated me? Nothing? How is that fair to me? What did I do to be treated like i'm my sister? I didn't do anything wrong and yet I get treated like i'm the bad one, it's not fair. And it hurts, it hurts me so much, it makes me feel like i'm worth shit. And my family can never take that back, they can never give me all those years back, so what do I get?

But it's not fair, I'm not her and it's their fault for making me angry it's their fault. Well when i'm in power then i'll make them all pay then let's see them judge me again, i'll be the one with a good life and i'll be succesful and then they will have to respect me then they will finally see me for the person I really am, then I can watch my mother and sister squirm like a worm on a hook, finally I can have my revenge.

I know you guys don't look down on me but....it's just today my older sister compared me to herself when she was young and it made me so mad. When she was my age she was having sex like a whore, she was doing drugs and getting drunk. How dare she compare me to herself, how dare she. I am so tired of my family judging me based on what she did, comparing me to her!!!!!!! I'm the good kid, i'm the smart one, i'm the good one, and I AM ANGRY AND I HATE MY FAMILY FOR COMPARING ME TO MY SISTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lily...........I...I....I knew this would happen. No matter what I do, I ruin things and now i'm ruining our trio. I can't help it Lily, I just burry things inside me for so long and all I want is a promise and answers as to why bad things have to happen and when do victim's get revenge. I want to fix things, I want to end abortion, I want to do good but I hate being a human being cause i'm so weak and I can't be strong and I let everyone down and everyone looks down on me and I.......don't know.

Why are you and Dakota fighting? :(

Lily...... Fine! I don't want to talk to you and Jesse anymore!