Tsukiyomi

I don't know what to do then.......

I'm thinking maybe I should just throw away my heart.

So he is your hero, at least you have a hero.

I see, why are we like we are?

The name does sound familar, of course I have heard of lots of Japanese voice actors, it's hard to keep up with them.

You don't understand. I would just like to be a doctor, just to find a nice girl have a family and enjoy a normal life. But if I do that then I will hate myself and feel like a failure to myself, those babies, and God, I will feel so selfish.

If I spend my life as a politician and spend it banning abortion then I wont be able to relaxe and enjoy life.

No matter what I do, I will still be tortured somehow, that's what is so hard.

My life must be spent banning abortion, if I don't do that then when I die how could I ever face those little babies who have been aborted. If I fail them, then I have failed myself and God. I don't want to get into public life, I don't want to do that but I must force myself, I must make myself do it, I must ban abortion.

If I fail then I will really lose my mind, I will go crazy, I will be broken.

I don't know how to be happy. If I let go of my will then it's selfish, if I ever stay happy then i'm selfish. I must always fight to bring justice or else God will be mad at me, I will hate myself. That is what I know, it's all I know to be.

If I ever stop trying to ban abortion then I will be a very bad person, I will lose my mind. I don't really want to be a politician, I honestly would rather be a doctor but....but I have to be a politician in order to ban abortion so I can be a good person, if I ever give up on that then I deserve to be punished for the rest of my life on earth.

Alright, see ya.

I want is the world fixed then I can be at peace.

Focusing on the positive is selfish.

If I find something happy then it's just ignoring the problem, I don't deserve happiness when every single day people are suffering.

Not for long, nothing truly makes me happy.

Nothing makes me happy anymore.

How can I do that?

Just tell me then.

Then you force me to change, erase my memories and start me over again, make me so I never hate myself again.

It's the only thing that makes my self hatred go away for awhile. If I hit myself I don't hate myself.

I just want to keep beating myself till I change.

Like didn't, I hate myself so much, I hate being who I am, I can't be human......