Leaving

Hi guys this hurts for me to says this but I'm leaving. I have multiple reasons. Listed below...

1.) Health Problems- Back in May I was having migranes, my family has heart/ blood/ stroke problems. My dad when he was 34 almost died from a stroke. My one distant uncle(it's like 4th gen but still) had a stroke when he was 4, he's fine but still. Those strokes started with migranes, so right away I had to go through tons of cat scans, mri's, so on. However a week later I went on vacation and it was gone. It was around this time I was having a lot of stress caused by rai and kupo. When I went on vacation recently rai caused me a lot of stress saying some hurtful things to me that gave me my migranes again, and I was on vacation, when I was supose to be relaxing.

Also due to me being on the computer sitting in my bed, I slouch some and I just found this out today when I went to the doctors, I can't spell it so I'll explain it, but my back has a condition in which it's curving. If I don't grow out of it and it doesn't straighten on it's own then I'll have to have surgery. If I don't have surgery it'll break into the nerves causing multiple things such as being paralized, my organs failing, so on. Basicly it would be death.

The next problem is screens in general, I have to get tested for glasses now because my vision is slowly going down hill.


2.) Problems- For a long time kupo and I fought, you all know why if you don't refer back to the staff changes thread. Then imediately after those problems back in May Rai and a few otehrs started saying some hurtful words to me such as, you're stupid, you're a terrible mod, you were never a good mod, the list is endless. I'm tired of it, tired of sitting in class the next day upset, tired of crying for no reason, so on. So you get the general idea.

3.) Hatred- apparently tons of people hate me, I get that over and over daily from Rai. I've even gotten it from Hope. So I know how it's like to have somone you hate and you find annoying whatever, take kupo and I. I don't want that to happen so I'm eliminating extra stress they don't need. Plus if you have problems coming out and tell me, if not I won't be able to change or whatever.

4.) KHI- a few of you know, and after I leave feel free the people who know go on and say it. Just know this, I did it so I wouldn't have to worry about khi ever again, I didn't want khi to happen here, so it had to be a secret that's why I had to lie.

Plus now I see it, KHP is going to probaly go down under, or become KHI. A jerk of a website that doesn't like KH and stuff.

5.) Banning- apparently staff wants me banned, rai has said it over and over and over, so i'll make their life easier and just leave.


Those are the reasons why I'm leaving, in order of strongest to not so strong. So reading that you can see why I'm leaving. Will I ever return, I don't know, it depends. I could be gone for just a month to forever. I definately need a break from the forums or to leave forever.

Also a few things before I leave mainly for people who despice me.

I first of all, rai, never filled anyone's head about autopsy, in fact early this morning I was defending her, however I gave up seeing a lot wouldn't listen. Plus you say I turned them against you when I didn't. You also say I created an army against, first off kkod brought this up to me when we were talking and venting and stuff, how can I create an army to go after you, I don't know where you live to show up in front of your door to hurt you and stuff. Then you say I've been turning people against you when all I've done was told the truth when people would ask 'How are you' I would tell them stressed out, and they'd ask why I'd tell them kupo and I were fighting, rai was hurting me emotionally, because of the site, so on. Then give the whole story. Never did I go out and say hey go against Rai because he's a jerk. I, unlike you tell the truth to the members, why because it's the right thing to do. Also on the topic of turning against, I haven't been turning anyone against you, if anyone has it's been you. I never have had problems with staff until you go around and say kupo and I don't get along, my precous kupo, so on. Plus I know you've talkked to sorabrawl filling his head with crap because now one of my very best friends on the site hates me and won't talk to me. All thanks to you, so tell me who's the bad one here.

To sorabrawl, like I said above I don't know what rai has said to you, but you know very well things about khi, you've seen it, in fact on khi we barely talked if you remeber correctly, so what you said in Answer Man's one thread is not you, I know that so obviously rai filled your head with crap. Plus never did I tell you a lie, you and I are friends. You're like a brother to me, so I don't know what rai has said but whatever he said is totally wrong, and you shouldn't go and shut me away and treat me like well what rai has been doing.

Hope, I love you like a sis, I love this site, but I want to be healthy than to be on some site that apparently people hate me at. So whenever you and I talk later on and you say stay for the site, I'll have to say no, I want to live a long healthy life, not die at 16 or whatever.

People who hate me, I don't know why you hate me or whatever, but you need to tell me why you hate me not tell rai and hope and stuff. You got to go straight to me. I won't be able to change or help make things better if you don't. So if you hate me post here and tell me why. It may not matter but I want you to go ahead and get your feelings out.

Everyone else I love dearly and stuff, I will miss all of you dearly. However upon this day I plan to try my hardest and forget khplanet, because honestly khplanet is a living hell for me. So I must go. Don't go and say don't go, I just ask that we remain in contact whatever. I'll probaly visit the site now and then, but only as a visitor.


So to top this off, for people who hate me like Rai, and whoever else, I hope your happy. For everyone else it was nice to meet all of you.

If you're intersted in keeping in touch, I will not be using my old email anymore, just PM me before tomorrow evening(that's when I'll be officially leaving) telling me wh I should give you my personal real life email and stuff. I'll give it to you then, but you must also give me your email and whatever so I know that sneeky staff isn't reading my pm's like rai has been to me who knows whoelse.

So any comments, thoughts, feelings, go ahead and post here. I just thought I'd let you guys know the honest truth and not what Rai has been saying.



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Full story of my stressful life on khplanet...

Back in August of 2008, I joined KHPlanet in hopes to get away from khi and start a new. Upon doing so right away I met many people who I would grow super close to. I was glad to know that I could count on you guys if I needed help. So in the sense the site saved me so in December I contacted TD and started posting articales about KH for the main site. Also later in December I applied to be on staff. Turns out TD wanted me and a bunch of others did. I was glad to be working with a quite a few friends of mine, one being kupo known as sao-sao back then. However upon becoming staff I saw kupo's true side, her evil side. A smart allec side. I started hating that. I also saw when in a convo with loco her insult my friend. Loco did nothing wrong there, so right away I had to defend my friend from what kupo said. From there kupo and I rivalry and pure hatred started.

In March a huge arguement broke out between kupo and I, the results ended in us all being removed and me seeing what loco was telling me, rai will love and always love kupo over anyone else. I was kind of mad, but I stayed when loco and kupo didn't. I stayed because I still felt the need to help the site. I was the only one who stayed. In return a few weeks later I was added back on staff. Right away I got to work, I completely cleaned up RP, it was organized everyone followed the rules, and during that time I taught so many how to RP. So many of those people are now like profesional RP's, one of the one's I'm proudest of is summonerbrandon, even know his grammar still is bad. The end of April however my worst nightmare came back, kupo. She came back flaming members. they all agreed with me, but at the same time they knew of how much rai adores kupo so they didn't push things to get her fixed, only I. what happens then, Rai starts saying some insulting hurtful comments to me. It was then I wanted to leave the site real bad but good friends such as hope, sora, and ds kept me from going. I didn't. All through June I tried my hardest to stay away from kupo and work hard, but nothing was working. Every idea was stupid thus I was stupid(she has said this to me on msn).

In July we finally had the last arguement I would take from her. She created a rule without consulting anyone on staff stating you guys couldn't add your RP templates to profile, that it was spam. Even know you were doing the right thing and post counts weren't added there.I told Hope and stuff right away. I also told sora and ds we all agreed we had to talk to rai and try to fix things up. He did, but in doing so kupo hated rai and from that he blames me, I was to blame for things. Hope then removed me from staff but not kupo because she didn't want to hurt rai, however when I told her that rai said kupo hated him anyways she then removed her. At first in this situation it seemed very unfair because a memebr who has caused problems with so many and caused so many to leave the site and staff was still on staff and I wasn't on who I only had problems with her. This was right after my great grandfather's funeral if you could picture how upset and hurt I was and then to hear rai say things like I'm the enemy, he hates me, so on, to honesty tell the truth I wanted to kill myself. It seemed like I could do aboslutely nothing and I was hated. I wanted to leave the site for sure and I was close to, but hope stopped me, and I regret for staying.

I come back and see this spam in RP and stuff, and sure I wasn't mod or anything I right away went to work PM'ing and VM'ing you guys what you were doing wrong and told you I'd still be watching. I even made a notice of it in my back thread, if you don't believe me go see it for yourself.So I started working real hard. However everytime I hit end I saw that I wasn't staff. I didn't care to much, but at the same time it did, it haunted me, so I asked hope if she thought I'd ever be staff again. She told me yes but probaly not anytime soon. I felt a little better to know I would soon be able to help the site again to full capacity. Then came autopsy, she came into graphics and posted what needed to be said, in a mean way yes(which could have bee nworded better to still sink in) but it was true. then she came over to RP, it was there I got mad. She comes there in the middle of me trying to clean it out again and says this place is a disaster. Well from months of hard work in that section, RP has become my baby, and what she said was an insult to me and I hated that. I told her my honest opion. Then we got into a huge arguement over VM's and when I'm pissed I say stupid stuff and so on. It was then I said I was staff before and stuff I know what I'm talking about, plus I'm going to be staff again. It was then she said that rai laughed at me and said I'd never be on staff again. Never ever. That got me mad so I went to rai and tried to talk to him, I was up till 1am. It was during this time he told me how people hated me, I filled people's mind with crap, I was a terrible mod, people want me banned, and I was stupid. Now you tell me, would you be hurt by this? I was and it was then that was my final straw. He was also saying I had to listen to him to have people like me. Well where was that with kupo. I was mad and pissed. I took it and appologised to autopsy, but then that next morning I was informed KHI members were coming to get me, planned to hack into admin cp, get my address, and track down where I live so they could kill me. I got this info from autopsy. So right away I told my closes friends sora and ds because I was worried, I mean come on wouldn't you if you found out you're basicly on a hit list. It was then ds told me the bext thing to do is leave. I knew then I would. So as much as I hated rai I told him worried about the safety of all of you, he just laughed at me and started calling me stupid and stuff again. Then that autopsy girl said they're not actually out for me, meaning she was just lying, more than likely to get me in trouble whatever. It was then it was my final straw. I planned to leave in silence tell my closes friends my personal IM. They were asking why, so I was being honest and told them why. It was here rai believed I was filling your minds with stupid stuff when all I did was telling why I was leaving. So he started talking to some members and began turning them against me.




So viewing the past you can see why I'm leaving.